Almost finished!

Yesterday I walked into the dentist office holding my breath! I was so excited and so nervous for the work to begin on my front top teeth. All of the other appointments and surgeries resulted in new teeth that no one could really see. This appointment was the one really would make the difference and change everything. After  four plus hours in the chair with my awesome dentist, Sarina and her assistant Dawn it was over. Well over for a few weeks. Each crown requires time where the lab is creating the actual permanent tooth that will cap the old tooth that is prepped for it. So I currently have 9 temporaries in my mouth while all of the final impressions are sent to the lab and Joe the genius there figures out how to fit everything together and make it beautiful! Right now half of the top of my mouth has a temporary bridge. Yes one of my gaps is bridged, covering a space I have had since 2007. Before that it was all rotten teeth! But my right side will not be filled until the final appointment where they will place my permanent implants on that side. But the result just from one side being filled was dramatic!

Right after my surgery yesterday! Only one more big appointment left! ๐Ÿ™‚

I only need to raise around $750 still. If you are interested to give please click on one of these links. (Paypal or Gofundme).

Six years ago I took a break from YWAM Perth to go on furlough and to pursue my teeth being fixed. During that furlough I lost my mom, Connie, in a car accident and through this devastating loss I have fought to also take care of myself and this included getting my teeth fixed! I am finally getting to see my dream come true and I also get to share it with all of you! My mom’s two big prayer requests for me were that I would be free from college debt and have my teeth fixed! I am a testimony of her prayers (and so many others who have prayed for me!). Today I am free from the debt of my college loans and next month my teeth will be completely finished! Thank you to everyone that has been a part of this process and the reality of my miracle coming true!!
Thank you!!
wanna read more of the story click here, here, and here. ๐Ÿ™‚ Love, Michelle

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Thursday, July 12th is the Big Day!

My final surgery is scheduled for Thursday, July 12th! Only ten more days! I am excited and glad to have had the extra time to get ready, specifically in my heart! I am not even sure that it will be that intense of a procedure but the result will for sure be intense! Two implants, two veneers in the front, one bridge, and six total crowns. All permanent solutions to a ten year (if not thirty-one year) old problem!

This past month my worship team threw me a BBQ fundraiser and blessed my socks off! I have been working on receiving from those around me and it has been an incredible experience! Haysville Christian Church set out a “tooth” box for donations and my cousin sent me a check that made me do a dance in my kitchen! Its all part of the process! Its like the phrase “it takes a whole village to raise a child,” except mine is “to fix Michelle’s teeth!” I am so grateful to everyone who gave to this miracle and everyone who prayed with me for it to be possible! It is a dream come true! Only $1100 more to go if you are interested in giving!

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So once again I am grateful for the prayers and the love! And I am absolutely blown away by the goodness of the Lord! Thank you!!

Change of Plans! 

A mold of my teeth from UMKC! 

My big surgery has now been postponed until June/July due to a lack of space in my bite for all of the new teeth. To remedy the space problem I will still have a minor surgery this Thursday, May 3rd! Dr. Sarina is going to crown one more tooth in the back and do a gum reduction (ouch!) to prepare for the new teeth. Honestly I am relieved to have more time to adjust to the thought of a new me and to raise the rest of the finances for my restoration! 


I am still in need of around $3500 for the procedures! If you feel led to give please click here or email me at michellesings@gmail.com! Thank you to those who have already given to my miracle, I am beyond blessed! 






I also really appreciate the support I have received from my friends and family! I feel the prayers and the love! Thank you!!!


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New Teeth

Thursday, May 3rd is the big day for my surgery! 

Before ๐Ÿ™‚

Two implants, one bridge, 5 crowns, some veneers, a gum reduction (ouch) and some stitches! Whew I am overwhelmed with excitement about the prospect of having this restoration done and with fear of all that it includes.  For over ten years now I have been missing one or five teeth plus. This is a completely new adventure for me. Teeth.

This one is harder for me though. But I am asking for help. I am a singer by trade and by calling. I need teeth to minister and walk out my assignment as a missionary! I am a communicator! I talk, I sing, I talk, I pray, I preach, I teach, I sing, and I talk some more. My mouth is in constant motion and for years it has been in constant pain! This past fall I began pursuing dental restoration. Now it is days away and I am going for it! My dentist, Dr. Sarina Harman-Tinnel is awesome and has taken a serious pay cut to see my miracle happen!

Dr. Sarina and Assistant Dawn

Opportunity to give:

I still need $4000 dollars by June 1st to see this process complete. Would you prayerfully consider giving towards my teeth and being a part of my miracle? Click here to give securely through Paypal.
Let’s link arms and see something wonderful happen! Thank you

Here is the rest of my story…

This is where two new teeth will be placed. I was born without two of my permanent adult teeth. They never grew in and so my other teeth shifted in order to fill in the extra space leaving more space between my existing teeth than usual. Due to that space and lack of knowledge of the importance of flossing food got caught up in between my teeth and caused my teeth to rot (i know gross right). Growing up we went to the dentist and the idea of braces for me was tossed around but finances were never available for it.

One of my baby teeth stayed in its spot until I was 21 and when it fell out just before my college vocal final; I was devastated. My health insurance did not cover cosmetic dentistry or implants so I left it that way, not really knowing what to do.  I entered head first into overseas missions often neglecting my own health issues. Over the past 6 years I have gone through a process of getting debt free and pursuing health while being a full-time missionary. This September 2012 will be 10 years of being a missionary and God has faithfully provided for me year after year! I am blown away with the places I have traveled and the provision I have witnessed! Excited to see how He has written this story. May 3rd is another chapter!

its our time

I wrote this a couple months ago and decided that it would be a waste to not share it. Enjoy! 

There are not words to explain the process of healing from the loss of a loved one. But I find myself looking back on all the time it has taken for the healing I have so far. Time is the amazing healer of all things. Time is not what you would chose for a healing process. You want it to be done, you want everything to be okay again. But alas time. And then some more time and then you wonder if there is something really wrong with you that its taking so much time. Why? Why does it take so long, why does your heart only respond to time and not the books, the questions, the love, the prayers? I have been thinking a lot about this lately. Should I speed this up somehow? Take a class, read a book, write a song, talk it out. But somehow the healing is happening, slowly, on its own, without prompting. Its kind of beautiful to watch, especially when it is someone elseโ€™s life and loss. But this time it was mine. My life. My loss. My time. Uncontrollable fixer of all things. Time. 


I know its crazy that I keep comparing my own healing to the healing my toe has gone through these past few months. But its so real to me! My toenail has grown in half-way and its got 3 more months-ish to go. It is slowly but daily it is getting better. To the naked eye nothing seems to be happening but it I pay attention it has definitely healed. In its own time it will be completely better. Not perfect, but much better! Just like my heart. Over this time my heart has gotten much better, not perfect, different forever; but much better! 

But I believe this is how He does things. I have a good Father and he takes the time I give Him and he heals me. Its his way, his process, His plan and I trust that! I haven’t been able to do anything else. And I know its good! I know its Him and his plan and his process. I believe that and I know “its our time.” Our time to see something beautiful to grow from this ash heap and I am so excited to see what this time will bring in my life. I am blown away by the plans He has for me! I am overwhelmed by this Time, our time right now. 


Ecclesiastes 3

 1 To everything there is a season,

      A time for every purpose under heaven:
       2 A time to be born,
And a time to die;
      A time to plant,
And a time to pluck what is planted;
       3 A time to kill,
And a time to heal;
      A time to break down,
And a time to build up;
       4 A time to weep,
And a time to laugh;
      A time to mourn,
And a time to dance;
       5 A time to cast away stones,
And a time to gather stones;
      A time to embrace,
And a time to refrain from embracing;
       6 A time to gain,
And a time to lose;
      A time to keep,
And a time to throw away;
       7 A time to tear,
And a time to sew;
      A time to keep silence,
And a time to speak;
       8 A time to love,
And a time to hate;
      A time of war,
And a time of peace.


dare to believe

Welcome to something hard for me to share! 
I have been praying for God to give me a way to get my teeth fixed and its finally happening!!
Early this summer, I called the UMKC School of Dentistry and I was put on a waiting list to be a patient. In August, I finally got the chance for an appointment. Usually it takes another 3-4 weeks to be matched up with a student dentist even after your first appointment. But within 20 minutes of being there I was matched up with Stefanie, my student dentist and I just knew that my life would never be the same! She has cheered me on and patiently taught me everything I have been waiting for years to understand. It was like I was going to school alongside her. 
Stefanie, my student dentist at UMKC.

The first few procedures were mainly for the pain I was currently in but ultimately I wanted to solve the problem of the gaps in my mouth. Unfortunately the school decided my teeth had more needs than Stefanie had time in school, but we both knew the ball was rolling and I should press on.  She referred me to an amazing private dentist who she worked with as a dental assistant before coming to UMKC. I was determined to not give up!

In 2007 I had surgeries to take out many teeth that had rotted.

I made an appointment and Stefanie personally took my Xrays to the office for me. When I met Dr. Sarina I instantly felt comfortable with her. She is my age and I felt like she put herself in my shoes. I was excited to finally get a couple plans that I could pray through in order to decide what I should do to fix my teeth. I should mention now that back in August, on my birthday, I received a check in the mail that would cover the first few procedures for my teeth. This was just the confirmation that I needed to dare to believe God would provide the rest!

Dr. Sarina and her family
After visiting Dr. Sarina I had two plans that I prayed through for a couple weeks.  I spent my prayer times seeking God about which path I should take. I called Dr. Sarina and Stefanie both to ask lots of questions and did research on the internet. I prayed. I prayed. I prayed and finally I decided! I was so scared though to actually take the step and start the process. I knew if I did step one of one of the plans that there was no going back! So I took a deep breath and called Dr. Sarina. 
This gap now has two screws in it, soon there will be teeth there! 
She told me right away that there had been a cancelation and I could come in the morning to get one of the major procedures done: two implants. WOW it kind of took me off guard, but I instantly said Yes! So last Thursday morning she placed two implant screws in my mouth. It will take about 4 months to heal and in the meantime I can get a few other procedures done. After the healing, I will have teeth attached and then the other big work, a bridge, will happen on the other side. 
Xray from the dental school. I finally understand some things about my mouth.
I wish I could take the time to tell you my story. I would tell you about how sick I was as a child which triggered the rotting teeth, the two adult teeth that never grew in, and the braces my family could never afford. But mostly I want to testify of the goodness of God! He is GOOD and His Mercy Endures Forever! Can you tell I am excited?
Thank you for letting me share my raw and very personal story! It is meant to be shared and I know it will be a story I will never forget!  Thank you for being a part of it! Love you Michelle

Healing

As you may know I busted my toe three weeks ago today. The stitches came out last week and this past week it has been healing. While it healed this week there were times it hurt more than when I had stitches in it. I was like “really, what is wrong with my toe?” It made me think the gash was going to open again or infection was setting in. But no it was just healing.
This process made me think of my heart and how at times the healing has hurt more than the wound/loss initially did. Why? Why does it hurt more, making me think there is something new wrong when it is just a moment of pain so that I can be whole. Will we ever understand how our hearts work and how much He loves this process?

I know I don’t understand it, but now I know that I am not crazy. I am just healing. Still healing from so much that has tried to stop me from being who He has called me to be. I am just healing.

Toe Sightings

So as many of you already know I busted my toe 10 days ago. Meaning I basically had a fight with a door and the door won and my toe lost. Not fun, not fun at all. Everyone kept reminding me that the nerve endings in your toe make it very painful when you stub it. Thanks so much for the reminder ๐Ÿ™‚ I felt that when I put a big gash in mine and then also ripped off the toenail. So tomorrow is the big day, the stitches come out and maybe soon I can get off the floor without doing calisthenics. 
At the urgent care…
Driving the cart around Target
At the prayer room!


Gazing out the window
Finally at the beach!
It was at least nice to get out of the house


Briefing with my team


Now he has a face ๐Ÿ™‚






 I think my favorite part of this whole toe saga has been the toe sightings! My not so favorite part has been the hobbling and the couch! Thanks for all the prayers and love that has come my way. More toe stories to come ๐Ÿ™‚ 


don’t forget to smile

I was thinking about my mom today and how joyful she was. Her perspective on life was contagious, some people couldn’t believe she was so joyful. It was genuine, like she had a secret. Her joy spilled out as smiles, giggles, hugs, dancing, praise, prayers, love, surprise, and pure excitement about everything. She was incredibly childlike and didn’t even try to hide it. And she seriously loved Jesus, so much! Ahh I miss that! Today remembering all of this just made me want to celebrate her and learn more about living JOYFUL. Looking at the bright side of life. Not taking myself too seriously. And just loving Jesus. She’s been gone for four years and she is still teaching me so much! I love you mom!


“I will bless the LORD at all times;
His praise 
shall continually be in my mouth.
My soul shall make its boast in the LORD;
The humble shall hear 
of it and be glad.Oh, magnify the LORD with me,
And let us exalt His name together.”

Psalm 34:1-3

singin

Yay I got to sing, and I have pictures. If you wanna watch, I will be subbing again tomorrow (Sunday) at noon.  Its free to watch the webstream 24-7 on  www.ihop.org!
http://www.ihop.org/Publisher/Article.aspx?ID=1000058181

I also have joined a team that does three sets a week, just not online. Its exciting to be singing more again.